Ashley Cain admits planning baby Azaylia’s funeral is ‘enough to bring me to my knees’
Ashley Cain has confessed he doesn't feel as "tough" as he once did as planning his daughter Azaylia's funeral is "enough to bring me to my knees".
The 30 year old and his girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee, 33, tragically announced they has lost their baby girl on Sunday 25 April following a battle with a rare form of leukaemia.
Since her death, the reality star has been vocal about their struggle as he recently said he often "looks up to the sky" to speak to his daughter.
Now, the former Ex On The Beach star has taken to his Instagram story to open up to his legion of 1.9million followers on how he's finding the process of planning his little girl's funeral.
Writing over a black background, he said: "I always dreaded the first time I'd have to plan a funeral. But I never ever thought it would be my child's funeral.
"Nothing could ever have prepared me for this. Some days it breaks me and I can't even bare to do it.
"I always thought I was tough, but making decisions on how I'm going to bury my baby is enough to bring me to my knees every single time."
Ashley added: "It's hard to make sense of anything right now, especially why did it have to happen this way!" followed by a broken heart emoji.
His other half Safiyya also took to her Instagram story on Thursday evening as she shared a photo of herself wearing a plain white hoodie with rainbows emblazoned all over it.
Speaking directly to Azaylia, she then wrote over the image: "Wearing my rainbow pyjamas for you Azaylia," followed by an orange heart emoji.
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She continued: "My days are so empty without you when ever I think of you I ache from head to toe as I miss you so much I get the biggest lump in my throat And I just want to fall to my knees n cry
"But then I think what would Azaylia do ( she would be brave, so I hear in my head mummy stay strong be brave just like me)".
Safiyya shared a second statement, where she told her followers how much "beauty" there is in the sky, which she's realised "like never before".
"I see the beautiful things you draw and create for me," she wrote. "You are my hero My guardian Angel [angel emoji] I will cope even if it's painful without you [praying hands emoji] because I feel your energy and I no you your watching & would want me to be strong and brave just like you," followed by a bicep emoji.
She continued: "Your looking from heaven & I will make you proud I will keep your name spoken forever Azaylia diamond cain
"Love mummy [orange heart emoji] forever in my mind heart thoughts and soul," alongside an orange heart emoji.
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